ici hidup lagi!

Did my 2nd trimester scan yesterday.  Still considering where I’m going to deliver.  Well, bayangkanlah, due date somewhere in February.  And guess what?  My medical posting had just been released 2 days ago…I’m suppose to report to Pengarah Kesihatan Negeri Perlis…yup…PERLIS…nunnnnn di atas sana.  I’m suppose to meet them before end of December.  Haha, gelabah semua orang kat rumah ni.

But anyway, where ever I’m going, I have to go somewhere in December or January next year, and by that time dah almost 32 weeks.  I still haven’t book my hospital for delivery!!!  Off course, like everybody else, I’m appealing for a closer placement for my MOship.  Coz once I got the place, I’m going to stay there until I quit the government, or further my study for Master program, or until they hate my guts that they just want to throw me out.  The earliest I can think of is 2 years.  Since that’s the new goverment policy.  It’s not 3 years anymore.  So in the mean time, got to equip myself with an international certificate, at least passing part 1 of…erm..MRCOG (UK) maybe?

My MIL is trying her very best to get me to Negeri Sembilan or Melaka - closer to KL - she finally found out that posting in KL or Selangor is out of the question (she called her ‘friend’ somewhere up there in Putrajaya.  Off course she didn’t know that when she got me into UMMC when I started my housemanship.  Well, now she’s pulling her old wires.  Me just wait and see…I’d rather like it that ‘fate’ has decided, but everyone else is very insistent.

I was just wondering why they didn’t just send me to sabah and sarawak.  Kind of fun isn’t it?  Totally new environment.  Hmmm, but I just read MMR forum, and got really scary vibes.  I’m not equiped to be a medical officer, but then I won’t ever be equiped if I stay in UMMC as a house officer anyway.  If I am placed in general hospital, it’s different.  There are senior officers and lecturers to consult.  If I am placed in district hospital, the whole place is going to be run by me.  Oh boy, even if Ici tak sarat mengandung pun, I don’t know if I can handle it.  Sigh!  But bila lagi nak go through this thing kan?

Anyway, back to the scan…it’s 98% sure that this baby is a girl.  At first I thot it’s going to be a boy.  Lasak betul!  16 weeks dah rasa gerak sana sini, macam ada twins pulak.  At 5 o’clock in the morning dah wake me up, regardless how many times I told her I need the rest.  Hmm, from the scan, dagu for sure from me, and hidung pun mancung, kaki pun panjang.  But we’ll see again next month.  Hubby haven’t seen a  live scan yet, so planning to bring him to one next month.

I’m filling up my time with my old hobby…sewing.  At least hubby doesn’t have to see me monyok almost everyday coz feeling bored.  I’ve made baby barut for newborn and baby barut for above 5 months old (bila dah meniarap nanti).  I’m going to buy a little bit more cotton fabrics for bedsheets and receiving blankets.  This time it can be flowery coz dah almost sure it’s a girl.  But God is great, He just might give everyone a surprise.

Waiting for December sale!!! Bila nak start nih?  Gonna buy baby stuff after this.  Budget semua less than Rm2000, and that includes EVERYTHING including teeny weeny stuff like cotton balls.  Thanx to my sisters who’s willing to pass down baby stuff, like car seat, bassinet, the cot, and some maternity clothes.  I still need to search for stroller, but that can wait much later.

Okay, need to get ready for work soon.  My baby has already woken me up and I can’t sleep anymore.